I'M DONE!!.. now what?
How many people stumble upon this question in life (intentional or not)?? This seems to be where I've wandered... and I'm coming to the realization that I have a serious problem 'planning ahead'! I've recently officially passed all the courses I need, which means I'm set to graduate. Proud? Yes. Fulfilled? Not quite...
In all this hustle and bustle and pressure of establishing a life for myself I somehow feel as if I've been letting my life pass me by. How many people are asking themselves this? How many people are looking back at a degree in their hands in some subject that they would never have expected (or have no idea how) to utilize? Are we interested in the subjects? Have we even tried to risk out into others? When in all this educational path are we allowed to just relax? Get to know ourselves and explore out into this amazing world around us? I've followed the band wagon through high school (somehow willingly putting myself through the IB program as well) then took a 'year off' to ski (I spent most of it in somewhat of a dazed depression wondering who I was and what I wanted from life- while busying myself with skiing and partying... no answers found...)... then off to university where I continued to feel like I've been battling this inner part of me that needs some attention...
To create a world that is truly sustainable I believe it needs to be happy, it's people respectful and there needs to be love. We need to listen to ourselves, listen to those around us, and enjoy what we are doing.
Reality check- worst economic conditions since World War II... An opportunity for change? Yes. A time for self reflection? Yes. A time for our society to transform into a more sustainable system? Yes!... Or a time to find a secure job that will be guaranteed? ... I don't know. How bad are the times to come? How stupid is it to want to take a year off to travel... I don't know. All I know is that we can't start to lose hope.
"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that." - Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
I'm 22, is it seriously that big of a deal is I try and figure out my passions? Is it really that black and white? How can I relax while exploring various pathways in y future's fulfilled direction? In all honesty I feel as if I've been going through a midlife crisis... only before I've actually even attempted to establish my life.
Now before I go, let me ask one more thing- and thats that you trust me. Trust me to know that I'm trying. Trust me to know I care. Trust me to know I'm worried, anxious as hell, AND stressed. But thats why I need your trust. I need you more than anyone to know, I need this time to explore the various rivers before I jump in my boat and head down stream. If you don't, then I won't and this entire adventure will be through much more turbulent waters and not enjoyed at all.
Please just let me know you trust me, as I have always done for you.
